September 3, 2009 • 1 Comment
I am regret….Why i still feel that if i am angry at you? Funny!
At first, i should leave with a very nice way and never turn back, but why i always can’t stand for it then scold you after you hide things from me? Because i feel i am losing a close friend. Keep far and further away. When people ask how are you, anything about you, i really mad because i really don’t know. We look like close, maybe from me to he but he always a mistery and in fact, he didn’t told me anythings of himself. I think, I made a mistake that.. actually we didn’t did any wrong things to each others… Just our weightage spend to each of us different already. I still give you 100% and you give me maybe… less than before, how many %, this i know…If want to me say it, I still hope 100% and never less while the actual one maybe less already. Why I still stick with this? Same things…. if a not close friend come and say hi, of course we will feel, he is good because still remember me… The effort gave to you are priceless and nobody can replace it.. that why if just hi & bye friend or less contact from you to me is very not enough to me….I will feel hurt because I feel like i lost priority in your mind. Pay you my effort already become my behavior. I think maybe what i gave to you more than your girlfriend can do as well. Of course i know, this become you stress and you feel guilty, am i right?When I go shopping, my mind automatic will set, if anything suit you or you need, I will buy for you! This is the different between us now and before. You ask me to store or delete those memory… I can’t and i don’t want try at all! Because we are close friend and live for such a long time! You didn’t ask me don’t delete your number because don’t want this continue on and off, this is bullshit! Don’t said it again!
The beautiful of your imprefecty always appear..maybe this is the way how i keep remember you as my closest friend.
August 30, 2009 • No Comments
I finally choose to delete your handphone number from my list. It is a hard decision to make. If others, i won’t hesitate for it…
I am very very tired with the attitutude you shown up. It become even worst. When i complain to you, how it change. Your reason just can’t focus so much, sure will neglect some, you have your path to go and must leave, busy….. It is this are the reasons you always receive when people dump you? then you directly apply to me? Even spending time, i also hope during your holiday i can spend with. But when she come back, nothing more important. I forgive you because I did the same things when you back! Don’t want make you hard to decide, i jump out! easy for you but you hide everythings!if she didn’t inform me earlier, you will hide until i found out? Where is your honest to me? When you start learn to hide things?Did i hide things from you?All the while, i am trying to think positively, that you are not like that.. Don’t keep force you. Let you have a breath. I trust you… you trying to dump your stress or tension to me not others…because your good and bad all appear front of me.. If said you bad but you plan so much for my birthday, your watch, some others… Made me happy.Why i can’t understand you or let it be? So it won’t continue hurt each others! I think the only reason because i want back a friend like before not the one with girl friend then other not important. You think it deeply, do you really accidently did it?
I tried my best to forget all the bad experience but you really did those very very deep impact one to me. I can’t let you continue bothering me. It disturb my life. You bring great impact to my life since i decide to help you last year. I won’t estimated this will be so long. Now, i feel like you didn’t appreciate what i gave or spent on you….I kinda stupid now… Stupid is the things you will do on your close friend. An, when you leave this world, i am very sad. I thought i still have you to accompany or replaced… But it is a lier…he just want my knowledge then now nothing useful, as he said. He don’t need close friend because he got girl friend. An, don’t worry. I still live strongly without this… that why i decide delete it!
Now is your turns to show how you appreciate me. You scare lose a girl friend but not a friend will help you without calculate so much and 100% pour the effort on you. If you still didn’t take any action then everything will come to the end. This is what you wish! However, if one day you break off, I will still there to accompany you and won’t tease you!
August 23, 2009 • No Comments
what a wonderful birthday i had, thank you for the celebration! it was very surpise. I like the only cake i had for this year and the presents i received. All are very meaningful and useful to me. Thank you for the arrangement. I received the largest card i even have and the most funny present also.A codomo lion toothpaste with 25 layers of present papers…. Thank you for everythings. The persons i need to thank with are my mother who gave birth to me, my 4sc4 students, L6S3 students, kekjern, kweiyuan, chong min, yit han, harnjun, wen shin and my panglima perang students. Thank you for the arrangement gave. I had a wonderful birthday celebration.
While, a day is short but few hours are enough to give a memory!
March 4, 2009 • No Comments
recently, suddenly get a conclusion… if you treat your students good, end up is nothing. It is students just know take for granted? I’m still don’t want to believe this is what my students charactec…When i complaining, they said i cant live without them….what a nonsense entertain reason! How good you prepare for the students, take all the factors that may hurt them…end up “i didnt ask you do so, so don’t blame me…” “so what, ya i thought you are invisible” “you bodoh only, you help me…” “last time i forced to listen and help you because i need your help…now, i don’t think i need…” all out of their mouth….
about friends or what… mostly they already go penang or KL work, the rest i really not like…always think about others’ factors and future but never think about my own future… what i want? just hope to see my students success then? I’m thinking it is true? It is i really need my students to accompany, to fulfill my loneliness?
lin, thank you for so dedicated to help in. But let time change the situation. The more i pay my attention to the student, the more i upset with. However, as you teacher or you treat me as a low grade friend, I still wish you all get a good result, get a good university, then get a better future! I won’t wish you fail you papers or fail for the entire life while the way you show back like above.
February 10, 2009 • No Comments
good to hear that, start from 11/2, i add another 5 periods for 2RK3, F2 science. I know mon, wed, fri, all periods pack and continously 6 periods… I am not god. but i know i can go for it! believe me… i am not a god but going to be it! haha, sound crazy.
Everybody thought i am the one who will replace Mr Thye, i just can say, i am Ryan Chong not Ryan Tyhe. Mr Tyhe can’t replace by anyone. His is a super teacher and very very experienced in teaching. I can do my works well but i will make noise because i am tired but i won’t reject because i dont do it, others will have to do it. Dont trouble others!
Recently, i have a new friend but not a girl friend! So, my dear friends don’t miss understand it! You want i get crush with a person…. wait for few years more la~
December 28, 2008 • No Comments
第一句
如果我们之间有1000步的距离
你只要跨出第1步
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
才是真正爱你的人
第三句
付出真心 才会得到真心
却也可能伤得彻底
保持距离 就能保护自己
却也注定永远寂寞
第四句
有时候 不是对方不在乎你
而是你把对方看得太重
第五句
朋友就是把你看透了 还能喜欢你的人
第六句
就算是believe 中间也藏了一个lie
第七句
真正的好朋友
并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起 就算不说话
也不会感到尴尬
第八句
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人
第九句
为你的难过而快乐的 是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的 是朋友
为你的难过而难过的
就是那些 该放进心里的人
第十句
冷漠 有时候并不是无情
只是一种避免被伤害的工具
i am only doing this to you no others meaning…stop crapping!
December 24, 2008 • 2 Comments
This holiday is not that long but enough for me to sick…… I realize myself are same as those working maniac…holiday more to kill me than let me rest in peace….
Those spm and stpm students, wish you have a great and enjoyable holiday for this coming 6 months…If free come to find me~ While school works burden never end but your invitation will be my honours~!
Wow, career just start to the retirement with JUSA or guru cemerlang path still very long! Do i capable to do that? 30 years to go! i think i can do it! Because yours word, IMPOSSIBLE = I M POSSIBLE…The days fight with STPM students really already past 3 weeks….A lot of teachers or students think if teaching works finish or finish exam then everything come to the end but i believe students always bring it inside their heart and memory….I think you feel the same way~! i try my very best to hold this and don’t let the gap appear in anyone of you…so, you also must try harder…one side only can’t do much…
Now left 2 weeks to re-open school….i think everything will back to normal and normal…..”Let it go,be strong, don’t let it bother you” this is the words everybody give me…..And i will return it with “give me time…”it is not easy…When you lost something for 10 years+, suddenly it come back and seem like true thing…it stay for quite a long periods….then suddenly it gone like UFO take you away. I know time will let me know the reality….And i also have to face this reality that is you are yourself, you can’t replace anybody!
Just know, i have to be few societies advisor… the interact club, sport primier and taekwondo-GTF.Besides that, I also have to be penyelaras bank item and the assistance of school timetable.. 2009 coming soon, it will be my busy year.. so do you! good luck, my dearest students!
November 19, 2008 • No Comments
i posted at sabs… so happy with it. Very happy and excited thing for me…At least, i know i must continue service to take care next generation. Can’t be static teacher!
however, the day you leave become faster… All of us know it will be the end and become memory. Really tough for me to leave it behind but~ I hope you get always get the best things! In the future, very tough for me to continue help you… this is what i can do for you….
recently, i look like getting menopause… gastric back, don’t know why~!
the road choosen still very wide and endless, i think i have to face it! Wo~ I have to be more dedicated and positive thinking.
“when destiny call you, you must be strong! Maybe nobody beside to help you out! Be strong always….!”
September 17, 2008 • 2 Comments
I just graduated become jobless person….
This few months, i rush with tuition classes…Now, i am helping my teacher to do a chemistry workshop. People say i am torturing myself but i don’t think so!
But so busy and earn so much for what? Spend alone? Sleep with the $$$?
Thank you, my students celebrate my birthday. A very luxurious present you all gave….Every year i just hope I can celebrate with my little brother. Whatever, wherever and whenever…. this just a hope and dream, never become true. But, just a replacement, it still can be real, “you know how to do during my birthday!, kitchen!”
This few days, i am very moody. No reason…. Just feel like i missing something. It is the time for me to get a girlfriend then marry? Maybe I have this phobia…..
SPM and STPM students, you all have my luck. Do the best….
